Some Heartfelt Thoughts

Its 2007 now and back from Georgia.

There is so much that is going on that it would be hard to explain.

I look at the Bible and am overwhelmed by it. It's taken me 4 months to finally read from Genesis to Acts. It hurts me to read the Bible because I have to, when I'd rather read the Bible because I want to. Yet if I do not force myself to read it, I will not read it and this is what hurts me. It hurts me also to think that my motive for reading the Bible is for the accomplishment itself. This ought not be so. It is my written prayer here that the Lord would help me.

I think about how frail my health is and how quick my life 'twill soon be past. They are frightening and torturous thoughts to really think of falling into the hands of the living God. How unaware I am to the fact that Im going to die soon and all things will be final then. I won't be able to change anything. There won't be any second chances; for anything I've ever done or for the life I have lived.

God is love (1 John 4:16). For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life (John 3:16). In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through Him (1 John 4:9).

I confess that the last three sentences that I've quoted are the most hardest things in the entire universe to believe. My weary, restless, and tired soul thirsts. I am well spent and I do long and desire rest for my soul. How can I believe in God's only begotten Son? How will I know when I believe in Him?

These are some of my heartfelt thoughts lately.